庇護工廠-善導寺Easy Coffee看板用插圖/The illustrations used in the signboards of the sheltered workshop "Easy Coffee"

庇護工廠-善導寺Easy Coffee看板用插圖

2010 簽字筆

The illustrations used in the signboards of the sheltered workshop "Easy Coffee"

2010 felt pen

“讓我一次愛個夠之愛是永不止息”2008台北美術獎入選/2008 Taipei Art Award

“讓我一次愛個夠之愛是永不止息”2008台北美術獎入選

時間: 2008/12/20-2009/3/8

地點: 台北市立美術館

“Make me high and more” was selected by 2008 Taipei Art Award, and exhibited in Taipei Fine Arts Museum from 2008/12/30 to 2009/3/8.

“讓我一次愛個夠”系列展由我的許多親朋好友幫忙促成，族繁不及備載，請見諒～仍由衷感謝！！其中我想要特別感謝火車，小塔，碗茹，沒有妳們我是沒辦法弄完展覽的！！我愛妳們！！

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這一次的展出，我將展場分為兩個部份:一個部份是行為展演的空間，另一部份則是文件的區塊。展期一共三個多月，我沒有辦法天天到美術館報到做行為，但還是在展期內安排了14次展演。

I arranged to display my work for two parts in the exhibition. One part was the area for the performance, and the other part was the area for the docunmenta of the work. The exhibition would be held for three months, however, I do not think that I could do the performance everyday in the period, but I still planned to do the live shows for 14 days in the museum during these months.

展場草圖及場地配置圖/the sketch and the plan for the exhibition

行為表演區/the area for the performance

文件區影像的部份，我設計成讓兩個觀眾在同一個箱子裡隔著布幕看不同的文件（下半身露在外頭），一邊的文件是之前觀眾在玩跳蛋的過程輪流播放，一邊則是我的自拍輪流播放。這時又有朋友建議我可以在文件箱兩邊裝針孔攝影機，當箱子內兩邊都有人在看影像、而影像告一個段落時，螢幕的畫面會突然切到隔壁針孔的畫面，觀眾就會突然看見隔壁的人，但在第一時間內產生混淆，分辨不出那是過去（文件）的影像還是現在（針孔）在發生的事情。我覺得這個想法很有趣，跟在跳蛋箱裝針孔的意義不同：跳蛋箱（現場行為）是為了營造匿名的親暱環境而不裝針孔，而在文件箱，我企圖混淆觀看者跟過去參與者的界限而裝針孔。不過因為針孔攝影機擺太近訊號會互相干擾，所以只保留我自拍文件那一邊的針孔。

I built up a wooden box for the doucumenta area, and also separated it into two parts by cloth, like the wooden box built for the performance. Different image records would be played on TV in each part of the box. In the left part, the image records of the audience interacting with me in the performance before the exhibition would be played by turns. In the right part, the image record of me in the performance before would be played repeatedly. Audience who want to see the image records have to crawl into the box and lie prone to watch TV while her/his lower part would be left outside the box, seen by other audience on the spot. I also tried to install a mini camera in the each side capturing the image from the other side of the box, and connected to a timer switch, which could switch the images on the screen from those played by DVD player to those captured by mini camera, then switch back on schedule, so that when two audience watch the documenta in the each side of the box at the same time, they would suddenly see the image of the other audience beside her/him just separated by cloth. It might make them confused that they could not differentiate what they saw was the doucumenta or the live recording at first time. I decide to install the mini camera in the box for the documenta area but not in the other one for the performance area, for I try to keep privacy for audience who were interacting with me; on the contrary, I want to break the boundaries between those audience who watched others being in a embarrassing situation and thought themselves safe from being seen by others (no way~). It was a pity that I could not install two mini cameras in such short distance, or they would be interfered with the other one, so I only kept the mini camera in the right part of the box.

文件影像區說明圖/illustration for the documenta area of the image records

文件區(影像記錄)/the documenta area (image records)

文件區（消耗品）/the documenta area (expendables)

LV（在地．觀點Local Viewpoint Made in Taiwan）台灣藝術家聯展/Co-exhibition “Local Viewpoint Made in Taiwan”

LV（在地．觀點Local Viewpoint Made in Taiwan）台灣藝術家聯展

時間: 2008/9/6-10/5

地點: 竹圍工作室

The documenta of work“Make me high and more”, was invited to participate in co-exhibition “Local Viewpoint Made in Taiwan”.

2008/Sep.6th-Oct. 5th,Bamboo Curtain Studio.

這次聯展主要展出的是“讓我一次愛個夠”的文件，包括影像記錄/裝置模型/之前展覽留下的消耗品（跳蛋/電池/衛生紙），沒有行為展演。

I did not do the performance in exhibition, but exhibited the doucumenta including the image records、the model of the installation, and the expendables such as vibrators、batteries, and tissues instead.

假展/The fake exhibition

假展

時間:2008/1/24

地點: 牯嶺街小劇場1樓大廳

The fake exhibition,

2008/Jan. 24th , the lobby of Guling Street Avant-garde Theatre.

為了辦「讓我一次愛個夠之為了藝術為了愛」 跳蛋系列趴特水，我跟家裡借了一些錢，於是我爸媽吵著要來看展覽。以我對我爸媽的了解，讓他們知道我在做什麼，實在有害家庭和諧，所以我硬是辦了一個假的展給我爸媽和他們的朋友參觀，這個展只會出現一個晚上。

To hold the third exhibition of serial work “Make me high and more”, I borrowed some money from my parents, and they expressed strong desire to go to the exhibition that they had no idea about what it is. I knew my parents, and really did not think that they would accept what I had done; the only solution coming into my mind was to hold a fake exhibition for one night for my parents and their friends.

展覽傳單/the leaflet of the fake exhibition

我找了日日春的朋友來展覽，跟他們說隨便展什麼都行。 大家想一些有的沒的，除了畫畫素描手工書之外，還有去爬山帶回來的盆栽、吃蘑菇時拍的照片、大學畢業剪掉的長髮、幫日日春劇團做的配樂跟討論性經驗的錄音。

I invited my friends in COSWAS to join the exhibition, and told them that they could exhibit anything they want. My friends brought their works that included their paintings、sketches、handmade-books、planets brought from the road side、photos showing my friend’s images that she tasted hallucination mushrooms at first time、a boy’s hairs that were cut down when he graduated from college、the incidental music created for dramas, and the sound recording of their discussions about sexual experience.

為了讓場子熱鬧一點，大家自組的素人社運鼓團「金火大鼓隊」（通常在抗議遊行時拿棒子敲飲水機回收筒，並喊喊口號）特別現場演出。

My friends and I had joined a drum team called “Jin Huo Da ”(means very angry, and “Jin Huo Da ”often shows in protesting actions or parades), which members use plastic buckets as drums and are very unprofessional.

We beat drums at the fake exhibition for a while to try to make everyone more cheerful.

我的指導教授還出現跟我爸爸握手，讓假展更有真實性。

感謝大家的情意相挺～～

My advising professor also came and shook hands with my father, and the act made my parents never doubt that the exhibitions is a fake one.

I really love my friends and my professor~

Thanks a lot!

「讓我一次愛個夠之為了藝術為了愛」黃立慧個展 跳蛋系列 趴特水/The third exhibition/performance of serial work “Make me high and more”

「讓我一次愛個夠之為了藝術為了愛」黃立慧個展 跳蛋系列 趴特水

時間:2008/1/18-1/20,1/25-1/27

地點:牯嶺街小劇場1樓大廳

The third exhibition/performance of serial work “Make me high and more”.

2008/Jan.18th-20th, Jan.25th-27th, the lobby of Guling Street Avant-garde Theatre.

當初因為朋友介紹找了牯嶺街小劇場的空間，一方面我也認為在表演空間外頭大廳做行為應該可以彼此呼應。我選了樓梯下面的小空間蓋箱子，它很隱密，但是所有人來來去去都會經過這裡。

My friend told me that I might ask some information about exhibiting in the lobby of Guling street avant-garde theatre, and I also thought that doing the performance in a theatre’s lobby might produce some interesting echoes to the space. I decided to build up my box below the stair, for the space under the stair is quite private while many people in the theatre often pass by.

展覽用傳單及展場草稿/the leaflet and the sketch for the exhibition

這一次的展出多了三十分鐘的影像，影像內容是之前展覽來的觀眾們操作跳蛋的樣子，背景音皆為跳蛋震動聲。當沒有觀眾進箱子內操作跳蛋時，這部份影像就會投影在箱子觀眾區的內部，當觀眾進來箱子時，影像便停止播放。

I made some image records of the ex-audience in the ex-performance, and the background noise is the sound from vibrator’s movement. I would project the image (30mins-length) into the side for audience of the box when nobody sit in the space, and stop projecting while someone try to enter into the box and interact with me.

「讓我一次愛個夠之高潮迭起」 黃立慧個展 趴特兔/The second exhibition/performance of serial work “Make me high and more”.

「讓我一次愛個夠之高潮迭起」 黃立慧個展 趴特兔

時間：2008/10/21-10/25

地點：第十巷活影空間一樓

The second exhibition/performance of serial work “Make me high and more”.

2007/Oct.21st-25th, the lobby in the office building of Documentary Media Worker Union.

展場記錄/image records of the exhibition

展覽用宣傳小貼紙及傳單/the sticker and the leaflet of the exhibition

為了增加觀眾那邊空間的私密性，我將整個箱子的正面轉到面牆，並貼上紙幕，同時讓現場光源維持在最低限。

To make my audience get more privacy in the performance, I turned the entrance of the box toward the wall、put a paper curtain in front of the audience’s entrance, and turn down the light to the minimum.

這一次的展出增加了一小塊文件區。文件內容的大致就是我在行為演出時所用的消耗品殘骸:用壞的跳蛋、跳蛋耗盡的電池、拿來擦拭跳蛋跟自己的衛生紙團。

There was a new area for documenta in the exhibition, and the documenta included the broken vibrators 、 the exhausted batteries, and the used tissues through the serial exhibitions.

這幾天在預期之中開展，然後在不可預期中擴散，掌控本身成為幻覺，觀眾控制作者，作者控制作品，作品控制觀眾；觀眾失落的發現自己其實無法控制作者時，作者同時訝異的發現自己無法控制作品，甚至，被作品操控著。

我的呻吟從焦慮到無法取悅，轉變成油滑到無法取悅；我逐漸進入身體勞動慣性疲乏所衍生出的表演性，累得半死但企圖穿越。作品不用快轉就開始明顯的呈現差異，當我以為啟動跳蛋開關已經讓我痲痹的時候，我的某些開關卻悄悄的被轉開了。

箱子裡真是個有趣的世界。正因為你待在一個只有自己的空間中，所以充滿安全感，只有布的對面，他人的話語和平緩的馬達聲。人在此情境中容易變得更加放鬆或坦白。人跟人之間無法重合，但可以貼近，只有這樣子，可以稍微靠近一些。

箱子同時也是一個照妖鏡，一旦進入，你無法迴避自己對性的焦慮或者對親密感的距離，它清楚的呈現在你填充性的語言或耳聞呻吟的不知所措上。

箱子是一個既安穩又狡詐的所在。只有我跟你，知道當下發生了什麼。它處在日常之外，描述日常的不可言說，就像樂園一般，而樂園的美好之處往往在於它已經絕種。箱子和跳蛋和性都不是隱私，它們所共構或企圖掩埋的其實是失落憤怒或傷感，那些無法解決卻需要被撫慰同時又被否認的狀態，那才是隱私之所在。

---- 讓我一次愛個夠之高潮迭起創作者展後感

“讓我一次愛個夠“日日春試玩版/The Demo of “Make me high and more” for COSWAS' workers and volunteers.

日日春試玩版

時間:2007/6/10 晚上八點半至十點半

地點:舊公娼館文萌樓

The Demo of “Make me high and more” for COSWAS' workers and volunteers.

2007/Jun. 10th,the ex-brothel "Wen Meng Building".

對我而言，跟日日春的阿姨或義工合作，在文萌樓（從前的公娼館，在日日春辦公室對面）做一次展演的意義在於，這裡從前是一個合法性交易的場所，在目前性交易還是非法的狀態下，<讓我一次愛個夠>給予一個以假亂真但不犯法的呈現，企圖凸顯所謂真實性交易違法的弔詭。為了跟其他組織者及義工說明清楚我到底想要做什麼，乾脆實地在日日春內部執行一次展演讓大家了解狀況，「日日春試玩版」於焉誕生。

I think that doing the performance “Make me high and more” in Wen Meng Building (the ex-brothel, located opposite to COSWAS’office ) is quite meaningful. Prostituion was legal until 1997 in Taipei, and all kinds of sexual works are illegal now in Taiwan. Doing the performance look-alike what prostitutes did before in the same space may show the paradox that my performance is legal, for what I do is an “art work” without “actual intercourse” and direct trades, but prostitution providing the similar service is illegal at present.

由於文萌樓平常有其他業務在運作，我可以使用的時間有限；我借了其中一間以前的執業房（就是小姐接客的房間）一個晚上，並且稍微改變了操作形式。在其他展場，觀眾進箱子按跳蛋並沒有時間限制，但這次為了在兩個小時之內讓所有報名要參與行為展演的義工輪到，每個人進箱子限時十五分鐘（跟從前小姐做一節的時間一樣）。對我來說這種形式上的調整影響還蠻大的，因為我沒有試過兩個小時的馬拉松式刺激，加上試玩當天例假報到，頗有小姐接客的勞動感。這次所有互動的對象都是認識的義工及組織者，也因為在日日春的前提下，大家願意配合採訪，有些義工非常慷慨的讓攝影機跟拍玩跳蛋的過程，在之後作品的文件呈現上都是難得的記錄，我相當感激。

Wen Meng Building is not always available, and COSWAS let me use one room (ex-working room for prostitutes) in Wen Meng Building for two night hours. All audience at this time are COSWAS’ workers or volunteers, each of them got 15mins (ex-prostitutes also provided 15mins service each time) to interact with me by turns. It means that I did not have any time to take a rest through two hours, and what makes the process more difficult was that I got my period at the same time. In this situation, I really experienced how hard a sexual worker would be. However, I want to appreciate COSWAS’ help especially, without participants in the organization, I have little chance to keep some records of the audience. Thank you very

much!!

展場空間（文萌樓）/ The space of the exhibition (

Wen Meng Building, the ex-brothel

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展場草稿/the sketch of the exhibition

觀眾，進行中。

audience in the performance

另一邊是我。

I was in the other side.